Us

This was just really quickly written, I didn't think much about it as I typed.. Enjoy.
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I’m not judging, I’m not demanding.
I’m only wondering why
and trying to see things as you do.

I’m not pushing you and expecting anything in return
but only trying to understand you
and help you if in some way I can.

All this time you’ve been building to this point
to these thoughts, to this indecision.
So why didn’t you tell me?
Why didn’t you talk to me?

You are perfectly selfish,
keeping from me what I deserve to know
and yet I can’t bring myself to blame you for it.

I want better for us.
I want us to be able to wake up
and feel glad for a new day
and to know where we are going
if only in theory.

I don’t want to hear your name and wonder “what if?”
I don’t want to always wonder why
and end with no answers.

I want you to be able to take a deep breath and truly smile
and enjoy the people and place around you
with genuine happiness.